ARGHHH

I'm focusing on other things right now. To be honest, the rise and fall of my crush with BFO has me down in the dumps. I'm an attractive girl. I'm interesting. I keep repeating this to myself like a mantra but it doesn't help explain why. I'm not even looking for Mr. Right. I'm not looking for Mr. Right now either.

I want a passionate relationship full of good sex and cosy nights with wine. Not in a romantic way. I want intensity. I thrive on it. The humdrum routine of boy meets girl, girl cooks dinner, boy comes home from work and talks incessantly about work isn't for me.

I know I could be that cookie cutter CEO's wife. But I don't want that. I don't want love either. I don't know what I want.

I think I need to go somewhere. Soon. But where? Obviously not Australia.